You are likely seeking higher wisdom now, and are connecting with your faith on a deeper level. However, it seems that you may still have lingering doubts, that are stressing you out a bit. Don’t worry about it! Your faith doesn’t have to be unwavering in order for it to be meaningful; you are allowed to have doubts, and still call yourself a believer. Look for ways to continue growing and learning, and don’t be afraid to question what you learn.